Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Day 1 - Random moments of Freedom?

Well twice today I thought I was going to sit down here and write a few things, and now I finally am.  This may be harder than I anticipated?!  Here's my thoughts...

Today when I woke up I realized my kids don't need me too much anymore.  I mean kids always need their mommy, but they are very independent.  They can all get ready for school and I pretty much just need to stay out of the way.  This is evoking strange feelings in my being!
First - HELP, What do I do?  No one needs me!  Otherwise known as PANIC!
Second - Cool, I must be a really good parent to have taught my kids to be so independent. PRIDE!
Third - I can now smoke an entire cigarette, while drinking my coffee completely uninterrupted. Crap, I quit smoking two and a half years ago.  REMORSE!
Don't worry - I don't plan on smoking again, even though it still holds certain appeal for me.  But why do parents need to be needed so bad?  I have spent all my time teaching my kids to take care of themselves. Now they can, and  I don't want them to?!  What the heck is that about?  I am torn mostly because I just am feeling so lost.  I guess I am having an adjustment period.  It is very weird.

Now most parents probably find something else to do with their time.  As I am sure I will.  Hence - the blog!
I should be thrilled to have more time, and I kind of am, but then here's the thing... #4 - GUILT!
What kind of a parent wants to be away from their kids?  I do darn-it!  But where do I go?  What do I do?  They are still young enough to need me to drive them places and be available. So it's not like I am really able to just hop on a plane.  I am just having random moments of freedom.  I am guessing God designed things this way.  Just a little taste, and then...REALITY!  I am sure this is meant to help the adjustment period be gradual, but it just feels like I am being teased...

Thanks for reading my rambling!
Wonder Woman

Monday, August 30, 2010


I am not entirely sure what I am doing so please bear with me.  I recently watched the movie Julia and Julie and while it was a perfectly good movie it made me kind of sad.  I love to cook.  I love to write.  How come I didn't do what she did?  OMG!  I am forty and I haven't done a lot of things I thought I would do with my life.  Now don't get me wrong. I am mostly satisfied with my life.  I am married, for the second time, to the most wonderful, patient, man on the planet.  Trust me I am not that easy to get along with.  And I have four children!  Wait, he has three.  Yes, I know you are frantically thinking 7 children!!!  It is crazy and wonderful and I am so blessed.  This blog is not really about that, although I am sure it will be a part of it.  

What I want this to be is something that I am passionate about.  Writing!  People tell me I am funny.  Kind of like Erma Bombeck.  I don't know if that is true, I guess we will find out!  I need to do something for myself.  I am forty!!! My life has been about family, and kids, and just making the ends come close to meeting for a very long time.  As my kids are getting older and more independent I find myself with a little bit of free time now and then and no way I have tried to fill it has satisfied me.  I hope this will.  This blog is about discovery, and passion, and expression, and my life.  I hope you find it interesting.  I think there are a lot of women like me out there. I will try to post daily, but If you are a Mom you know that may not be possilbe, but that is what I am shooting for. One more thing,  I am using the name Wonder Woman because that is what my mother has been calling me for years.
Thanks for reading, I would love to know what you think...

Wonder Woman